Baby's Room

Don & I worked on the baby's room this weekend. We put up the crown molding & painted clouds on the ceiling. Don did a fantastic job on the clouds. I was worried they'd look like white blobs if I did them, but he got up there with the sponge and did a great job. I am just so excited with the way it looks... I think she is going to love her room! So the room is pretty much done now... except for the window coverings. I bought some fabric and pattern to make window shades... but my sewing skills aren't very good, so I haven't even started on them. And today when I looked at the color fabric I purchased, I don't think it will match very well now. I think I'm going to try to find some sort of cordless wood blinds or maybe roman shades.

Long overdue update

I can't believe it has been 3 months since I've update my blog. I guess I've been spending time giving small udpates on my facebook page and have neglected this. Sorry to all my friends and family who keep up to date here.

Well not much good news on the baby front. China didn't make any baby matches in September.. ugh! Apparantly the person that signs off on them was travelling so they couldn't finalize them and send them out. Whatever! Why right before it is our time weird things like this happen.

Our agency finally received some today (10/12/09) but only LIDs through 3/28/09. We are still unsure of when we will receive our match with our LID being 4/3/06. It seems like we should be next but I won't count on it because well... it don't want to be disappointed when it doesn't happen. I have no idea if we'll see some more matches in October or not until November. Don and I have had an ongoing joke that he'll be in China during Christmas. And that may actually happen. From the time we get matched with a baby it takes about 4-6 weeks to finalize travel.. so it could happen. Oh well he doesn't care... all we want to do is get our baby and bring her home so we can love her and take care of her! I just want to know WHEN that is going to happen. This process has about drove me nuts! Someone in my adoption group called it Chinese Torture. That is sure what it feels like.

I do think we should get our match in the batch after this next one. So if they send out more matches in October than our month will be November. But if they don't send out another batch until November, then we'll be December. I'll keep everyone posted!!!

Thanks for all your prayers... they really are helping me get through this. Pray for our daugther also... that someone is taking good care of her, loving her, holding her, playing with her, feeding her when she is hungrey! Some orphanages take good care of their babies, and other's not so good. I pray she is in one of the good ones!

July Referrals

Disappointing month! Only 2 days matched. I am so sad, no chance of a September referral now. The CEO of my company gave me some wise advice today tho. She told me of a group of prisoners of war and how some made it through the horrible ordeal and others didn't. (I'm not saying at all that waiting for our adoption is anything like being a prisoner of war, because it is not). But the prisoners who kept setting a date of when they thought they'd be rescued (for example they would say; "we'll be rescued by Christmas", but that came & went so they'd set another date "we'll be rescued by Easter", etc etc.) and as those dates came & went these prisoners were heart broken and finally gave up and most of them died. But the prisoners who just had faith they would be rescued and didn't set a timeline, were much healthier and able to handle the whole situation better. So, I'm going to try not to set a timeline on this anymore. Cuz that is actually all I ever do. Like the biggest one is I wanted her home by Christmas. So I'm really going to try not to let myself go there. It'll happen according to God's infinite wisdom and I trust in him! Ok I said it but now I got to believe it!!!!

June Baby Referrals

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I'm getting so anxious! I feel like we are so close but yet still so far away... since we don't know how many referrals will be made over the next couple of months! This month China made referrals to LIDs through 3/20/06. Our LID is 4/3/06. There are only 14 days of LID's between us and our referral. I'm thinking, hoping, praying September 2009 will be the month we get our referral, but trying not to get my hopes up too much cuz it will be such a let down if it doesn't happen. I have so many emotions going through my head right now... excitement, anticipation, joy, fear, anxiety. Lord I know you will help me through these next several months. I'm so thankful I have you to lean on!

May Baby Referrals

Wow, what a rough month this has been. Rumors that referrals weren't going to be sent out again until September 2009. Have had some dark moments of just want to give up. But, God is good and he has helped me through the month. Also, wonderfully supportive friends and family. And the good news is May referrals were received today. Congrats to all the families out there who are seing their little ones faces for the first time! I think our turn will come in September, if things continue at this pace. What an end of the summer present that will be!!! I can't wait!

April Baby Referrals

Well only a couple more days this month. China made referrals for March 7th & 8th. There are lots of rumors that more babies are going to be available for adoption and things should speed up. But I'm not getting my hopes up. It is just to hard to get all excited and then only see 2 days of LID's rerferred babies. There are only 27 days of LIDs between us and our baby. I'm just hoping it doesn't take all of 2009 to get there! Our agency says we should have a referral by Fall so that is what I'm counting on.

The Shack

My husband and I love to read. Although the subject of our reading greatly varies. He likes scary, weird books (Stephen King), while I like books about puppies, sunsets & rainbows with happily every afters. I've been reading "The Cat Who" book series by Lillian Jackson for several years. I almost have all of the series. They are mystries but not scary or too graphic. It is the perfect read for times when you don't want to really think to much, just enjoy a stroll through a book. I also like Self-help books or books that will help me grow closer to God.

Anyway, my hubby is always trying to get me to read a book he's just read and says how good it is. And the bad/scary (or whatever) parts aren't that bad. I try to tell him I just don't like to read about serial killers, mass murders and such. For some reason my brain hangs on to that morbid info and thinks about it and dwells on it until it's got me all wigged out. So the last 3 books he has asked me to read I have politely said ok.. and then put aside hoping he wouldn't notice.

So the other night, my husband just finished reading The Shack. He just went on and on about what a good message it had. He said I just have to read it. So I started asking some questions about it. It is a christian fiction story, based losely on factual events. And the story starts out where a father's daughter is kidnapped and murdered by some serial killer. He tries to tell me that that is just a small part of the book...........well that is horrible, why would anyone want to read a story like that. But he really thought I would like the message of this book and really wanted me to read it. So since I've said no to so many others, I thought I will read it for him. So today I got to the part where the daughter was kidnapped & murdred. And I have been crying ever since, and I have a sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach. WHY am I so sensitive. I know this kind of thing happens in life, but why when I get into a story about it I am so affected by it. This tragedy happens while they are camping. Something we do every summer... I immediately think "well we are never taking our daugther camping". What a mess a book can make of me... I really hope this story is worth the way I feel right now. I'll keep you posted.