I should know better!

For some reason I had high hopes that this month that there were going to be alot of referrals from China. Nobody told me this, I just had a feeling. I fought this feeling, but it just kept coming back. So I was on pins & needles to see how many days were referred this month.. every day checking my adoption agency website and reading the rumor websites. Well referrals came through yesterday and it totally bursted my bubble. They referred the normal amount of 5 days of LIDs. Well at least that is what is speculated. We have gotten the official word yet. But the unofficial words is 2/20/06. Ugh! I really was feeling pretty bad last night. I know we are getting so close, so I shouldn't be feeling bad... But I would just like to see things go a little better than normal for a change. Another issue that added to my dissappointment is that I am sponsoring a foster child in China right now and she is turning 12 months old this month and I'm wondering... "Why hasn't she been adopted?". There are so many of us waiting and waiting and there is this gorgeous little sweet princess that needs a forever family and she remains in foster care. Don't get me wrong I'm glad there are foster parents in China careing for these girls, but let's get them to there forever mommies & daddies SOONER than later. I decided to ask about this from the agency I am sponsoring her through. Maybe there is a perfectly good reason. I will update more on that when the get back to me. Bye for now!